You took my kindness for weakness
You took my advice and devoured it
Not use or to keep, but to bring me closer
You looked at my life,
Because it was something you wanted
You felt you knew it, knew me
And you resented me for it
How many times do I have to tell you?
You don’t know me
You don’t know my life, who I’ve been all these years
You’re not my physiatrist, my father, my boyfriend, my priest
But you wanted to be one of those
You wanted to take,
And fit a place within me
I don’t have anything for you
Stop picking at the crumbs
Just take what I offer
And leave me alone
I didn’t ask for you help, your consultations, your advice
I didn’t ask for anything from you.
You’re unsatisfied with everyone,
Because of the pedestals you place them all on
Including yourself
I don’t know who you think I am
I know I’m not her, she let you down
Now you’re angry with me, disappointed
But all I ever did was show you
Who I was
You chose to see what you wanted
And romanticized what you didn’t
I am a fucking human being.
Not a dish for you to pick from